I Know I'm Filled to Be Empty Again...

It's been a long time since I took a guitar, locked myself in my room & worshipped God for hours and hours. Today was one of 'em.

I was actually reading my EDWJ (Everyday with Jesus) when these 2 verses spoke to me. Psalm 139:23-24 "Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting."

After encountering this verse, I decided to spend some time with God. I sang out the whole Psalm 139 in my own worship tune and I begin to flip my worship files :) haha. Sounds familiar? LOLS.

Anyway, I'm in a pretty dry period of my life now and as I begin to worship, 3 songs spoke to my soul.

You Alone
I'm letting go of all that I know
I'm holding on to You alone
I lay it all down, down here at Your feet
I want You alone
You alone

We humans love to use our intellect to try to understand God. I am only human, trying to understand a transcendent creator. All that's required is faith, for without faith, it is impossible to please God. (Hebrews 11:6)

I'm learning so much about faith. There are 2 levels:
1) Childlike faith. Where we believe in God for everything and God seems to answer all our prayers.
2) Fidelity. Where God withdraws Himself and keeps silent like in Job. That's when your faith is really tested. That's when faith really becomes faith.

All that I want is just God. I need to let go of all my philosophy, all my facts, let go of all that I know and hold on to Jesus alone.

Ready Now
So take my heart, and make it new
Make it true, make it like You
Take my hands, I lift them high
They're Yours not mine to do
Do what You will (x3)

I need to surrender afresh my heart and my hands and see how God unfolds His plan in His perfect time.

Desert Song
This is my prayer in the battle
When triumph is still on it's way
I am a conqueror and co-heir with Christ
So firm on His promise I'll stand

This is my prayer in the harvest
When favour and providence flow
I know I'm filled to be empty again
The seed I've received I will sow

Triumph is still on its way! So firm on His promise I'll stand! I know I'm filled to be empty again, the seed I've received I will sow...

When I think of what lies ahead, it's just so bleak. I can't seem to look beyond the grey skies - Worsening culture in the world and loosening culture in the church. These are what my heart aches to see change. When these change, lives change. Hope overflows. Revival flows. Before all these can change, I must change...

I'm on the way there. Stick with me Jesus :)