You never know why you're alive until you know what you'll die for

This week has been a really lousy week. These are the causes:

1) Crossing Water Obstacle (CWO). This is one of the most detestable training I've been through thus far. I hate this more than field camp!! For those who've never done CWO before, it's somewhat like this:

> You want to get to your objective but there is a water body preventing your progress, e.g. a lake, river, etc...
> Someone will fix a rope across the two banks of the water body.
> All of us will go into the water body in FBO (Full Battle Order) and pull ourselves across the water body using the rope

For our case, the water body was a muddy lake. And we didn't cross the river once, we crossed it 3 times!! 1st time in the late afternoon in clean fatigue (no combat gear), 2nd time in the evening in FBO (dua lao sai) and 3rd time in the night!! @#$%^&*()_+ Bravo Company crossed the river twice only ok? Once in morning and once at night. Haha. Ok..stop comparing Jonavan...

Everything is just soaked! Not in clean water but smelly, muddy water. From my field pack to my LBV (the vest that soldiers don), to my BOOTS!! All soaked. I can't describe the feeling. We still have to carry our FBO back to our start point btw, which is really tiring.

The irritating thing is, they made us bring EVERYTHING in our field packs. "Everything" includes compass (Apa ini?), pacer (FOR WHAT?!), 2 matadors (?!?!?!), 2 bungalore torpedoes (WHAT THE HECK?!?!) and basically all our personal and section store items. Whoa!! Killer man.

Washing up is a real big issue for us too. With so little free time and so many items to wash and dry, I tell you...this dumb exercise is really ma fan to the max.

2) Failed my SOC. Why? Because of LOW ROPE!! I've overcomed my low rope problem since BSLC and now this bloody problem is back to haunt me.

I was really pissed off when I couldn't clear that station. Because, I CAN! Apparently, that day wasn't my lucky day. The rope was kinda slippery and I was pretty tired due to river crossing the day before and with only 5 hours of sleep, I can barely clear my low wall as well. Haha.

So yeah, this really sucks.

3) Fell out of my 8km CSB (Combat Skill Badge) endurance training run. For the past few CSB runs - 5km and 7km, I cleared them nicely, clocking a good time. This time for 8km, I screwed it up. How?

There's a water point at 5km. It was sooooo tempting. So I decided to take a drink. I stopped and gulped down 2 full cups of syrup. Shiok ar! And guess what? At my 6.5km, my stomack also SHIOK AR! Stitches started to develop. I thought the pain would lessen and eventually go away as I continued running, but the exact opposite happened. It became unbearable. So I fell out.

-__-" I'm not taking any water breaks for my 10km run I tell you. Dua lao sai. Ok, maybe I would. But I'd just take sips next time and not whole mouthfuls.

So yeah, these 3 causes in my training programme really spoiled my week. And I'm so glad that THEY'RE OVER! Ok, next week's training program is worse...It's picking up speed already. High key events are all approaching. I needa pray for more of God's grace and strength and favour man :D haha.

And on the way back on the MRT these song lyrics really struck me although I've heard this quote before by someone else. This song is by MercyMe "I Would Die For You" and this particular line of the song hit me "You never know why you're alive until you know what you'll die for"

Sometimes, I tend to forget the reason of why I'm here on this Earth. Especially when you're 24-7 in a military camp. Haha. So this song reminded me that life here on Earth is but temporal. Everything will go into the grave one day and be forgotten: money, friends, achievements, CSB badges, IPPT Gold badges, exam Certs, 3sg rank...etc...but what's done for Jesus is eternal. Reminds me of this quote by William Carrey "One life that will soon be passed, only what's done for Christ will last."

And yes, I booked out on a Friday afternoon! :D Earliest yet! :)