Oh well, I become Tian Wei only on rainy days. HAHAHAHA!
Anyway, wanted to blog about this song earlier...Was just listening to my mp3 last week on my way home when this song in my playlist played.
It's called "Strong Enough" by Matthew West. The lyrics of the song simply pierced me. You GOT TO check out this song. He's an awesome artist...Lyrics below:
STRONG ENOUGH
Matthew West
Christian Contemporary
You must, You must think I’m strong
To give me what I’m going through
Well forgive me, forgive me if I’m wrong
But this looks like more than I can do
On my own
Chorus:
I know I’m not strong enough to be
Everything that I’m supposed to be
I give up, I’m not strong enough
Hands of mercy won’t You cover me?
Lord, right now I’m asking You to be
Strong enough, strong enough
For the both of us
Well maybe, maybe that’s the point
To reach the point of giving up
‘Cause when I’m finally, finally at rock bottom
That’s when I start looking up
And reaching out
Bridge:
‘Cause I’m broken
Down to nothing
But I’m still holding on to the one thing
You are God
And You are strong when I am weak
I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength
And I don’t have to be strong enough
I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength
And I don’t have to be
Strong enough, strong enough
Oh yeah
HOW BIG IS GOD? Though man may strive to go beyond the reef of space
To crawl beyond the distant, glimmering stars;
This world's a room so small within my Master's house
The open sky is but a portion of His yard.
Chorus
How big is God? How big and wide His vast domain?
To try to tell these lips can only start
He's big enough to rule His mighty universe,
Yet small enough to live within my heart.
As winter's chill will cause the tiny seed to fall
To lie asleep till wake by summer's rain.
A heart grown cold will warm and throb with life anew
The Master's touch will bring the glow again.
--Stuart Hamblen
‘Cause I’m broken
Down to nothing
But I’m still holding on to the one thing
You are God
And You are strong when I am weak
I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength
And I don’t have to be strong enough
I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength
And I don’t have to be
Strong enough, strong enough
Oh yeah
The lyrics say it all. I've always been this strong...I seem to know and have it in control. Life's been good to me...But now, God is bringing me through a season of breaking me down. Many situations and occurrences are reminding me that I'm not as strong and steady as I think I am.
And this song really summarizes everything. Ultimately, I am not and never will be fully in control of life. I can't control if the test paper I get is tougher (LOL), I can't control what people think of me, I can't control so many, many things...and in light of what I think God wants me to be, I really am lost.
In fact, I don't even think I can ever fulfill whatever vision God has placed so deeply in my heart. My idealism and passion is dying down. I guess God wants me to die to ambition, die to self, die to seeming purpose in life, die to my self-sufficiency and just fall in love with Him.
IT IS REALLY HARD TO DO JUST THAT! I discover we busy, Singaporean Christians are so caught up with work, work, work and study, study, study and serving, serving, serving, that we forget that life is just about loving people and loving God - Proverbs 8:35 "For whoever finds me finds life and receives favor from the LORD."
John 17:3 "Now this is eternal life: that they may know you, the only true God, and Jesus Christ, whom you have sent."
We have reduced life and Christianity to just doing, doing, doing...When it is all about being, being, being. We've become Martha-s, caught up with doing and achieving the physical that we miss out on what's more important.
Anyway, God is bringing me to this place where I can sing that line in the chorus of the song "Strong Enough" - "I GIVE UP, I'M NOT STRONG ENOUGH."
I know that, but I'm still holding on to my strengths, to my past, to my achievements and looking to these things to define me. BUT I'M NOT DEFINED BY THEM! I'm defined by who Jesus says I am...
Uhh, too much thoughts to distill clearly over here...I gotta focus on my studies for now...Test this Saturday and a whole lot of recorded lectures and tutorials to finish!!! So yup, let me end of with this hymn:
To crawl beyond the distant, glimmering stars;
This world's a room so small within my Master's house
The open sky is but a portion of His yard.
Chorus
How big is God? How big and wide His vast domain?
To try to tell these lips can only start
He's big enough to rule His mighty universe,
Yet small enough to live within my heart.
As winter's chill will cause the tiny seed to fall
To lie asleep till wake by summer's rain.
A heart grown cold will warm and throb with life anew
The Master's touch will bring the glow again.
--Stuart Hamblen
